The person you have lost will not walk through your door again and say hello. But one day you‘ll join them in the hereafter. If you can believe this then you have something to look forward to.
If you are desperate to be reconnected now, you have to find a person with the psychic gift of being able to telepathically receive messages from departed souls.
I’m not talking about the occult or strange people sitting in the dark, but about spiritual people who believe in God and genuinely want to bring comfort and hope to those left behind. They sometimes call themselves soul-healers. I visited some who were able to communicate with my daughter and relay messages from her which were definitely genuine and also very helpful. I was relieved to hear that she was in a good place and I was deeply moved by her insistence that I wasn’t in any way to blame. My own personal belief in soul survival after bodily death was confirmed by the messages I received.
The WHY questions can only be answered clearly by the person who has passed on. Contrary to popular opinion, there are no dead souls and those living on the other side do not need to be woken up to give messages. They are very much alive and often desperate to speak to those grieving for them. People I‘ve encouraged to visit a medium were also reconnected with the person they had lost. They received messages that brought relief and healing, usually including details that nobody else could have known or guessed. It’s these details in the messages that show the genuineness of the medium. I think that suicide-bereaved people, more than any other group of grieving people, need the sort of reassurance and comfort that mediums can give.
You can search on the Internet for a good medium and read the comments other people have made about them on their websites. Most can be contacted by phone and can give messages over the phone, so you don’t have to go anywhere. If you live in the UK, you could visit a spiritualist church service one Sunday. The services are similar to those of other churches, but the ministers are also mediums and give messages during the service. Other churches believe that souls live on, but spiritualist churches prove this. A helpful book by a medium is Good Grief by Theresa Caputo. She can also be seen on YouTube.